new year's rest-olution

my new year's rest-olution is to quit forcing myself to over-achieve. though it may not appear all that involved to the onlooker, my days have been jam-packed with anything and everything i can possibly fit into 19 hours. however, i am fortunate enough to begin the process of dropping stress like flies. i have divorced my demanding partner of 3 years, Carrabba's; i have "left the nest," with a fledgling of my own; and soon i will be rid of the several times totaled toyota that refuses to just die already. after pushing myself through sewing many, many curtains; hanging light fixtures; assembling stubborn furniture; recovering chairs and benches, and painting every vertical surface in this house; i plan on sitting down and taking a breath (after folding the laundry, of course).

and that ought to be next year, if everything goes well. so now i am faced with the lesson of patience, perseverance, and leaving well enough - alone. supermom and literaturelover continue to be motivators for me: how do they do it?! i love how they look at me with the "how do you do it" look, when i am looking to them for answers!

so the new year will roll in while i am looking the other way (or choosing another paint color) and the dust will settle. i long for the light at the end of this tunnel, and it is oh so close! while others choose resolutions that involve taking up new hobbies and eating right (ha), i choose to not choose anything. i won't lose any weight, i won't improve my attitude, and i won't start using any of the late-nite info-mercial exercise equipment i purchased. i will, however, not sign up for any new clubs, or accept any part-time jobs, or take more than 15 credit hours at school a week. sound lazy? well that's my intention, and i can't wait!