now that i am here

heavenly light
find me
blind my heart
to these short-comings
that come so close

i want to be your light
mirroring the fabulous colors
that cause others to
stand in awe,
convinced of you

giving into darkness,
my kin,
a strong hand pulls me back
assuring that i am not
forgotten
there is no deadline
for this perfection,
only the common search

how does one find what is not identified?
are you what i want?
is this the course, divine?

i long to please you,
to love you as deeply
as i desire to be loved:
with complete trust and satisfaction

in your image i am
a beautiful creation
convicted by the first fall,
i am now a mess of sinful nature
desiring most to be reunited
with a love once known
while limited by my
physical capabilities

may i lean on your shoulder;
growing ever closer and dependent?
this world stresses the
strength of independence
but away from you i feel nothing
no strength     no beauty         no love

keep me close, dear lord,
for i love your presence
and result in my heart
affect me lord, daily
lighting the way to your home
by you i am sure to find